hurtful mother

Alissa • 🧒🏽🧒🏽👼🏽👧🏽🤰🏽happily married. 💗

growing up my mom's been an alcoholic/addict and abusive emotionally and physically. I have Plaque Psoriasis and she'd say things like 'no one will love you with all that on you', she'd bring random men home and I've been things I shouldn't of as a young child. my older sister was the butt of it all until she went to foster care then I had to protect my little sister from it all. yet I've always forgiven my mother for everything even though people tell me not to. even though I am the one who forgives her and still wants her around me and my older sister still get treated like crap. I told her I was done being her punching bag and then she sent a 3 page message belittling me and saying the most hurtful things. says nothing but bad thing about my 3rd pregnancy even though we're excited. I don't know what do to. should I just quit putting in the effort?