I've worked with children and adults living with autism and Down syndrome, and honestly I agree. As much as I love supporting people to be their best self, I don't think I could handle the immense pressure, time and resources that come with raising a child with mild-severe autism or Downs. Of course I'd try my best and I wouldn't love my child any less because of it, but it's exhausting and I'd rather keep that environment at work rather than at home (if that makes sense). It's not horrible to feel as though you can't provide for a child with higher needs, it's totally normal.

Having a child with certain exceptions can be a heartache and not everyone can handle itYour not wrong for saying soI know a few people personally who have straight out said they wouldn't be able to raise a child that needed extra love and attention because it would break their heart Don't feel ashamed I'm sure your not alone in this decision