Depressed

So today is day number nine of my period that typically is only supposed to last seven day. I haven’t had this problem in year mainly because of birth control helps regulate it and stops it. The longest my period been on was three months. I’m know how ridiculous that sounds, but I just kept wishing it go off by it self. I was diagnosed with PCOS and anemia at the age of 16 I am now 24 so I know my condition I’ve been through this before where I won’t see my period for about three to four months then “BOOM” three month long periods and my doctor prescribes BC to make it stop, but I digress anyway I’ve been taking my birth control for a steady year and my boyfriend of 4 years have been talking about having kids finally. I’ve always wanted kids and he always wanted to wait, but were on the same page and I stopped my birth control three months ago. Of course my period came right after I stopped BC and went for seven days then the next month it did the same and then this month it came on super light at first I thought wow maybe I’m finally cured well maybe not cured I know there is none for pcos, but I thought maybe I’m finally ovulating. To my knowledge anytime my period last more then seven days was never a “real period “ as my doc puts it so I was never ovulating in the first place. So here I am day nine and the only way to turn my period off is BC which means preventing a baby so I just can’t win. I read stories with people with PCOS that have healthy babies who’s been trying for years I hope I’m lucky because right now I really don’t believe I can have kids I’m not ovulating when my period comes on without BC and now I have to take it to control my period so I won’t bleed to death. This condition really sucks I don’t know what to do I’m really just tired of getting my hopes up to only be let down..