Am I a horrible person if I no longer want children? I'm weird I'll start off by saying. I wanted to be the person that got pregnant as a teen. I even asked one of my best friends to get me pregnant in high school. It didn't happen. Then I met my husband and we've never used protection. Well 7 years later of being together we're actually trying now, tracking and everything. And now that I might actually be pregnant, I don't want kids. I sound completely selfish but I don't want to get fat, I don't want to be sick, I don't want to push a baby out of my vagina, I don't want to poop on the table, I don't want to lose sleep, I don't want to breastfeed, I don't want to be out of work for months or permanently if I were to become a stay at home mom, I don't want to worry about all the things that could go wrong, I don't want to raise a bratty teenager, I don't want to miss all the opportunities to travel and take spontaneous trips and go out to dinner every week and go to amusement parks and not have to worry about a babysitter or bringing the kids with us. Am I a completely horrible person? My husband and I are just starting our life's and he's already 30. I know he won't want to wait to have kids and later. And I don't want to wait until I have my career and be settled before we try to have kids. My career plan with schooling and everything is going to take more than 10 years. I've never wanted kids after 25. I feel any older and you shouldn't have kids. (I mean absolutely NO disrespect to anyone who's gotten pregnant later than that and I'm sorry if you take offense. I mean it in no way to be hurtful) My husband isn't going to want kids after he's 40. That's when people are usually sending kids off to college and getting ready to retire. We'd never be able to retire comfortably and have time together if we have kids later in life. Am I a completely horrible person? I feel absolutely horrible and I need to get it off my chest... Sorry for such a long post and thanks for reading.

I'm sorry if I do sould selfish or self centered. Maybe I am. But I have to go through everything, getting fat, being sick, have people stare at my vagina, having raw nipples, being unattractive because I don't have time to shower or take care of myself because I'm taking care of the children, losing out on my career goals and losing my business that I currently run all because we wanted kids. Yes I understand he wants kids but I don't think I can give them to him anymore. I'm scared because we'll probably get divorced and he'll be with someone who does want children. And I'll be alone because I didn't want children. I'm a completely horrible person. I know I am.