Something I have to get off of my chest....

Ever since you cheated on me, my self confidence has fell... I was once strong, and I used to be able to overlook every one of my flaws. Now, all of my flaws stick out and there's no way I can overlook them.

Is it wrong of me to think that the girl you cheated on me with is prettier than me?

Why isn't my skin clear?

Why is my hair nappy?

Why couldn't I be mixed or something?

The one question that floats in the back of my mind when I scroll through her Instagram is

Why can't I look like that?

I told you in the beginning how I had a hard time loving myself growing up... I told you how self conscious I used to be.

No matter how many times I ask people for reassurance, no matter how many times someone tells me I'm beautiful, it doesn't mean anything because this fight is now internal...

I feel so... hideous.