Long story short, my ex of 3 years admitted all the fucked up things he did while we were together. One in particular, fucked a girl in our apartment WHILE we were still together. When he told me this I kept my composure and didn't end up killing him because I know karma is gonna get him a million times worse and I'm going to find happiness one day. Still very sad/mad when I wake up, but he'll never be happy with his life. Thankful for the courage I had in that moment to know that I deserve the world.