Down in the dumps

I'm just so down after losing my daughter after birth earlier this year.

We want to try again but I haven't started ovulating yet(since I pumped and donated milk)

We just moved from Hawaii because of her death and we have to live with my husbands parents and his little brothers.

I can't find any apartments for rent that have good reviews and that are affordable.

People keep having babies and posting things and it hurts to see since I lost mine.

My husband doesn't care about finding a place.

We can't stay with MY family because I have to play babysitter with his fucking 2 12 year old brothers(YES 12)

I can't handle the stress on top of being down, and I just want to quit.

PS. If you don't have anything supportive to say, then go somewhere else to be an ass.