So my BF of 5 years has always steered away from going down on me, he's tried to and every time he does he can't. I'm pretty sure he finds it gross, which in turn is saying I'm gross. Last night we were both drunk and I got him to go down on me, mind you I didn't know he was going to do that or plan for it so I didn't shave the past 3 days and so I was a little hairy and he did it for about 2 minutes and it was the best he'd ever done and felt amazing! But he stopped and said you're a little hairy... and he refused to go down- mind you, every time he had gone down before I was completely shaven, like no hair at all anywhere and he wouldn't do it so I feel like he just doesn't like my vag.. which really hurts.. I don't even want to have any sexual relations with him for a while because I'm embarrassed of my vagina now. And I've never been! I haven't shaved the front part of my downstairs for over a year and I just trimmed because I wasn't ashamed to have hair and I had a sort of emotional shower today after work and completely shaved myself clean even tho I'm not going to let him do anything to me.. idk and now I regret it and want to cry..