Anyone a nervous tester like me !!

Im so scared of seeing another negative test , it's like I get my hopes worked up every month . Then I basically set myself up for heart ache . I'm two weeks late , I'm peeing a ton , I've been cramping on and off for a while , I'm a tad but naseous every now and then and my cm is thick and creamy. I want to test but something in the back of my head is telling me it's going to be negative ??