Wanting pregnancy at 16

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I'm not trying for a baby as I'm aware of the responsibilities and i want to be financially, physically and emotionally available when i do conceive a child to ensure the best possible upbringing. To me, the reality of falling pregnant at this age would be very stressful so for that reason i always ensure we're using a contraceptive such as a condom. But the idea of it leaves me hoping that it fails somehow 😂😂 get me? This hasnt happen to any of you guys?

I've always wanted a child at a young age and it's so fucking ridiculous and no I'm not trying for a baby and still use protection but each time after sex i find myself hoping that for some reason it fails. My boyfriend has said similar things but I've never told him that i think it also. I just say "no we need to use protection" or something but fuck i want it to fail 😂😂😂