Pregnant

Welp I'm 5 days late... I took 4 pregnancy test yesterday and they all said I was pregnant right away. I'm so scared, I'm 19. I work at amazon btw. My boyfriend doesn't want kids at all. I don't even think he'll stay with me if I keep it. I've always told myself I wouldn't kill an innocent life, but I just don't know right now. I look up a clinic and learned about a abortion pill. They give you a miscarriage. I don't think I can put myself through that 😭😭😭. Also my mom has always said she'll kick me out if it ever happened. I'm in a bad spot. I don't know what to do 😭😭😭. The one all the way to the left I took yesterday. It was the first on and it was dark for hours. The one all the way to the right I just took. I need some advice.