So my husband and I are moving in two weeks. Back when we started our TTC journey, I thought when we had to be out of our apartment in September, we'd be looking for a two bedroom place. But with everything that has been happening the last 6 months, we thought it was best to get a 1 bedroom place again, but cheaper. Moving from an apartment complex to renting a condo from a landlord, we're going to be saving $130 a month. So I'm thinking that money is going to be put aside for potential treatments we'll need, going to specialists etc.

So as I was cleaning out a closet to start packing, I found this picture. It's my late grandma holding me. She passed away 3 years ago, and it still hurts that she is not here physically though all my major life events. She passed away a few months before I got engaged and obviously wasn't there when I got married. It has felt like theres a big hole in my heart since.

Seeing this picture instantly brought tears to my eyes, not just the fact that I miss her so much, but also thinking that she's watching over me and holding my future child and just wants a little more time with him/her. While I wish she were here so she could hold my future child, I feel knowing she's up in heaven potentially with my future child gives me hope. I'm not sure if this makes sense, but has helped me cope with the here and now.