I need to know I'm not alone

I've been diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety as well as borderline personality disorder and Bipolar following a mental breakdown triggered by my fathers suicide.

My daddy was never a constant presence in my life but i truly did have an unending devotion to him and simply never let him down like so many had, he took his life for reasons unknown less than a year ago and I'm still as hurt, as horrified and as utterly destroyed as I was the day I found out, despite doctors, despite medication and despite therapy.

I need to speak to someone who knows what it's like to loose a parent this was, and so I'm reaching out to you as a support and a comrade and because I desperately want to find some solace in this sickeningly devastating situation, because you know, whoever you may be, that it's time to talk