help please......

Savannah

so I just moved and i suffer from both really bad anxiety and depression I've been hospitalized for suicide attempts before and my mom still won't get me help lately all I've wanted to do is cut open my legs again I've been clean for a month from everything I used to use smoking (weed and cigarettes) alcohol and pills to numb the pain which im not doing anymore so it's been hard not to self harm im 15 and need help how do I not do that stuff and not cut?