Even when I was an adult film actress, I always refused to get on top. Luckily, my director understood that. I told him that I wanted to save some things for marriage. However, it was honestly just because I was scared to try it in fear that I would absolutely mess it up. I FINALLY DID IT. I said to myself, "Fuck it. I love Caleb, and he'll tell me how to do this." GIRLS MAYBE I WAS JUST BORN WITH IT, because that man couldn't even speak. I just did what felt good and that was the first time he had ever hid his face to keep me from seeing him! I swear I had never heard him groan like that. I'm on the pill for period regulation and can't have children anyway, so I let him finish inside me. When he did, he squeezed me so tight I thought I was going to die. he kissed me all over and told me how wonderfully I did. LADIES, FACE YOUR FEARS!!!!!! You won't regret it if you go into it open-minded and open-hearted!