I need some kind words rn 😭

I'm going to post this anon because I am so ashamed. My sons father, wi was once the absolute love of my life, the man I was sure I would marry, gave me Chlamydia. He cheated on me, I noticed something was up and he swore up and down and all over that he didn't fuck her, I'm overly cautious so I got tested and sure enough he gave me Chlamydia. I'm so heart broken I feel so dirty and betrayed. What if i didn't get tested? I could lose my fertility. What if it was something I could give to my INFANT SON! He's TWO MONTHS OLD! His father brought STDs into my home, he infected me, im so fucking UGH! Idk how to react. I want to create the biggest scene but I'll remain calm and mature. I feel so disgusting. All I did was have sex with my own man, in my own home, and he gave me an STD. I want to cry. I can't believe he did this to me.