ladies help ):

alright so this guy is away at college and he's really making me stressed out. maybe he really is busy, but it is psychically hurting my heart and it's really hard to even do anything. its his senior year also btw. ik he's gonna say he is busy if i complain so idk......i really want to tell him "call me when its xmas break and if we r both single and u can be serious. i cant wait." or something along those lines, but i am so nervous to do that because what if he finds someone else? that always happens to me. i like someone, and either they let me go or i let them go, and then they find their "other half." i just want it to be me for once. 😕😢 or should i just keep waiting. what should i do?