IM EXPECTING!!!!!! ...to be let down again🤦🏻‍♀️ please read

Tasia

AF was due for me anytime between Sep1-Sep3rd, Granted it's only the 5th but she still hasn't showed. Not getting my hopes up because...well we all know how it goes. however, I typically only get cramps on the day I start my period, when I tell you I had the worst cramps the morning of the 3rd, maybe only two or three long ones but I was hunched over as it was very painful but no bleeding. Today my boobs feel a little sore on the sides, but honestly I wouldn't have noticed if I hadn't touched them, but the weird thing is these little twitches and twinges in my cervix, I've never felt it before? Bc this is my 5th cycle ttc, I'm all too familiar with the disappointment and feeling of sheer failure when you see your stark white FRER, I won't test again unless AF is a week late, that would not be normal for me. I get more and more discouraged every month and ready to say fuck it. Any comments, suggestions, or advice is welcome and appreciated.