today's dr. appointment was the worst. I had protein in my urine, I failed my glucose test with a 175, have to go back for 3 hour, my baby is measuring extremely small with a growth restriction only in the 8% tile, and to top it off she has a cyst and fluid buildup in the brain. I have to go and see a specialist on Friday to find out what we're going to do. they can't tell me at this point what it is it could be anything from nothing to brain cancer.... I just can't take this all I want to do is cry I'm hoping for the best but in the back of my mind I'm expecting the worst. while I'm pregnant they might put a needle in my daughter's brain to get the fluid out or pull her early and have brain surgery on her or the best parts could be a good go away. I just want to crawl in a hole I'm trying to stay strong but I don't know how much more I can take.