Hello,

Dear friends.

Help me please

When I was a child I was raped, then I was raped again by my boyfriend. He was really abusive and he used to hit me, he almost killed but I escaped that horrible relationship. I never lacked money, or anything. But I lacked love and he never let me talk with anyone

I had another boyfriend which he was my same age, I loved him with all of my heart. He cheated on me with my best friend.

He used to give the best orgasms! Like wow! -which I haven't felt in a long time-

Later on I dated this Adventist guy, who seemed sweet, we never had sex, but he was so distant. He was younger than me, so he never fought for our love!

Even though we didn't had sex, I felt the same way, just miserable. Like nobody cares for me.

I stop dating for 5 years, I just can't open up.

I met this new guy. We are dating, he's my boyfriend, he has depresión and I have anxiety disorder but I have learned how to manage it informa of others.

I'm not young anymore, I'm 30 he's 28.

I like him, but I haven't felt that love. Even if had sex too soon or not at all they never swmm to give me love like I wanted.

I had an orgasm before, with my exboyfriend! I like my current boyfriend and I told him I was raped because he told me about his depression. We did had sex but it was so painful, I have cero experienced because the one that raped used to give me grits to sleep and my other boyfriend did all the job.

I know people sex as something normal. Part of me wants to get married and have a family filled with love even if I have cero love at my family. I was raped by a súper closed family member

I have become so cold. My boyfriend told me that if I wanted to wait he can wait and masturbate.

Will I ever feel love? I don't know if he loves me or not. He says he wants to be exclusive. But I'm not getting any younger, what if I regret when i get old??

I remember my grandmother who only married his only boyfriend saying she regretted it.

If I get Pregnant by accident it might blessing to finally be a mom. But I don't know if he will see me like that?

My aunt told me not to mention anything about lobe or commitment because it might freak him out.

I tried talking to my mother but she never has time for me.

My dad used to callus sluts since we are 6 years old. Who does that?

I remain calmed after I had sex with my boyfriend. I don't want to be seen as a Sex object. Even if he had an orgasm, I couldn't! He as nice after that. Saying it was his bad precome. It might seem like I have experience but I don't