Looking for advice and tips really.

So I'm 9w3 and got one day further than my previous pregnancy, and I thought 'that will be the point I get excited', but I'm not. I'm a ball of nerves and anxiety. My husband is super excited, but I don't want to do anything or tell anyone as In the back of my head I'm expecting the worst. I have my first midwife appointment Monday (uk), and I'm dreading it. She wasn't the best last time and I just don't want to be there.

Does it get better?