I haven't been able to find a better job so my husband and I are moving when tax season comes around we're going to Cleveland oh from Atlanta Georgia to be closer to family and because I have a guaranteed job in my career field there but I'm losing my mind and staying positive is not happening. we want to have another baby and we've been trying and it's not happening and it's tearing me down everyone I see is pregnant people I know are just popping up pregnant left and right one girl I know is considering getting an abortion meanwhile I'm just sitting here with a uterus that doesn't know how to act right. we have two boys and we're trying for our girl. my husband doesn't seem to understand how much it tears me down I cry everyday. he started thinking that maybe we should stop and he hasn't been "letting lose" inside me anymore and now it's like I have no sex drive. we had great sex but now it's like every time he doesn't do it I end up crying because I want to keep trying. I don't even want sex at this point it's not going to end the way I want. I have nobody to talk to I have no friends family would just criticize me. I'm becoming so depressed and u happy it's unreal I don't know what to do anymore I want to be happy I want the better job I want our little girl and a better apartment but nothing is happening and I've been trying and trying and trying and I'm reaching my breaking point I have made it a goal not to try to end my life again as I have tried many times before an di have been doing so good for about two years and now I feel worthless and like there's no hope and it seems so small but it just keeps getting worse and I'm losing myself