Hey everyone. I'm currently 9w6d with my rainbow baby after two miscarriages. My first one was at 10w3d, the heartbeat was always very low and my angel decided that it wasn't time yet. My second one happened at 6 weeks on the dot, I had just found out I was pregnant the day of my fiancé's pre-deployment leave and we were in a car for 31 hours to go visit his family. It was too much stress on my body.

My current pregnancy is nothing like the other two, I have the worst morning sickness and my breasts hurt so bad I can't even wear a bra! I never had that with my first two. The heartbeat is 161 bpm and my HCG keeps going up which is great, but as time creeps on I'm starting to get super paranoid about every little thing that happens. If I don't feel nauseous when I wake up I feel like I've lost the baby, if I'm not as bloated I freak out and if I can wear a bra without crying I'm hysterical. I do my best to not freak out but I'm so scared. I just want my rainbow baby in my arms already.

I've also been having horrible episodes where I bleed bright red, soaking anything I'm wearing with huge clots yet the baby is always okay when I get checked out and they never find any free fluid in my uterus. It's causing me to worry so much but then I'm partially happy because I think I have a very sticky bean!

I don't know

Is anybody else extremely paranoid or worried that one little thing could mean the end? Is it just me or the hormones?