Tired of everyone and my "family"

I just want to run away and never come back. Everyone is getting under my skin . stressing me out and giving me bad anxiety. no one treats me right . not even my own parents. They had me at a young age i'm 23 now. they don't care about me . I always tel them they should have aborted me if they are treating me like this everyday. i get no support from nobody. Not even my boyfriend. no one loves me anymore. Sometimes i just want to hang myself but then i think of God and that he's watching me . I do love him and don't believe in commit sucide but sometimes i have no control .. I just want to be happy that's all i'm asking for ..