advice plz

Marie

me and my husband have been ttc for a few months now and im now on 4dpo and for some reason this months waiting game is killing me i know if i test now and its negative it will get to me especially bc this month we are in a battle with my husbands ex wife bc she wont let us see there 2 boys which she does something like this everytime he is happy and so i need advice on how to play the waiting game this month i will also say i have a 3 year old who misses his "brothers" and crys for them every night plz any words or wisdom