sorry this is so long

i miscarried begging of February my first from age of 15 ive wanted a baby but was told by doctors i couldnt have kids coz i have pcos WHY they said that i will never know because it was a lie but i belived it n got usta the idea of never having my own baby but then December 2016 i had all symptoms i knew i was pregnant did a test om 20th was vvfp the negative aftet that then 31st jan 2017 i was in agoni went to doctors was told i was pregnant n sent for a scan on 1st feb but they confirmed it i was pregnant but miscarring my hcg was 663 i should be giving birth this month all i keep doing is crying is this ever going to get better