Reconsidering divorce....

I thought I wanted a divorce but after some thought and filling the papers out I realized it's not me that actually wants it my husband keeps suggesting it but if he hasn't filed for divorce then he really doesn't want one either right? He has done a lot to hurt me but it just makes me stronger and want to love him thru all his problems because at the end of the day I'm still a wife that takes her vows seriously for better or for worse. What yall think?