Too hard to talk much about

I lost our baby after 3 years of TTC ! Our first ever pregnancy! After the military we finally got pregnant and it ended at about 7 weeks although it was still early I never thought I'd ever experience it before and I'm in pain emotionally. I miss being pregnant I miss that joy! I miss that happiness that was just special and the excitement and the hopes and the dreams and I want a baby more than anything but ttc is just so much harder ! I'd be 27-28 weeks pregnant right now and that kills me I just can't figure out when to try again when is it right how do you get over that constant fear of loosing another baby I can't!