Heartbroken.

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As I write this feeling heartbroken and confused , I am experiencing a miscarriage. I am 6 weeks pregnant. I have a 10 year old from a previous relationship and my husband and I were ttc for awhile. Of course we were over the moon. Everyday I felt overjoyed, logged all my details everyday and started to feel excited for the future. I just turned 40 so I wasn't sure it was possible. And then after the first blood test my hcg levels were low. And yesterday doctor called and said there were dropping. And immediately I started to bleed cramp and it began. So I went from being excited to completely down. I cried all day yesterday and today I feel low. Confused. And what now. Does this mean it will happen again or I won't be able to have another child. Before I got pregnant I said a prayer that of it was meant for us that we would be pregnant. A week later the test was positive. And 2 weeks later my dreams feel chattered. How will I overcome this loss ? Do I try again? How long before I wait. My clock is ticking. Everything I read is so discouraging. I am truly Heartbroken 💔