I've been getting very frustrated with having no control over my own body. We miscarried our first pregnancy in June at 9 weeks. We didn't find it until our first ultrasound so it was complete heartbreak, I had a d&c; immediately after. We've been TTC for 2 years now. My doctor said to wait for my period before trying. My period didn't come until 3 months later... wish the help of provera. I also asked to be put on clomid to help (finished on august 25th). I have irregular periods so it's difficult to figure out when I ovulate. I think I'm in the TWW and have tested wednesday and got this

It looks faint to me but am feeling very doubtful I'm pregnant. Took a clear blue today to see if it made any difference, here's today's test

I want to give up. It's just keeps breaking my heart expecting and seeing negatives. I just don't feel like getting pregnant is in the cards for me. Sorry for my rant..