Masturbation

I'm 34 years old, married, and ttc. I've never masturbated (until now) or had an orgasm with a partner. I enjoy sex with my husband, I just haven't ever finished. He's been supportive about me exploring my body and got me my first vibrator, which I just tried to use. It just kind of hurt, and I'm not sure I had an orgasm. Is that normal? I'm not sure what to do.