Hey everyone! So me and my now ex best friend had been friends since elementary school! We always stayed connected via text and always hung out over each other's house, had sleepovers, cried over guys, you name it, but When college came, we ended up going to different schools. She really wanted me to go to the college that her and many of our high school graduates were going to, but I just couldn't!

I've always wanted to find myself and have a fresh start! We grew up in a small town where everyone from elementary - high school knew everyone and knew everything about everyone lol. So I went to school about 3.5 hours away from home to find me.

Long story short I loved the school I stayed until the end of sophomore year, but after one bad semester I found comfort in my now ex best friend. We both complained that we weren't satisfied at our schools and we felt like we could only really be close to each other. Looking back I really wished I had stayed. I really did find myself and made some many diverse and awesome new friend. Many of whom I'm still connected to today!

At that time I do remember complaining a lot about some of my bad decisions, friends, and roommates to my now ex best friend, but I thought that's what friends do... she often would do the same regarding her college experience. Also I didn't feel like I was always complaining. :( if this is the case, I hate that she never said anything because I would always support her and encourage her when ever SHE felt lonely or insecure about something, so I didn't understand why?

Anyway she encouraged me to move to her college mostly because SHE felt lonely, and I had been planning to transfer anyway. So when I got there I had hoped we could spend more time together like we'd talked about, but she became suppper distant. I was so alone! I know I could have immediately joined clubs and orgs but fuck I'd hoped we would spend more time together especially since SHE asked me to come there!

I started hanging out with a few other high school friends, who were nice enough to show me around and joined clubs with me, although I did a lot of exploring and joking clubs on my own, but Every time I tried to hang with her she wouldn't respond to my text or she would just give me the cold shoulder.

I felt so bad. I assumed it was because I had been very depressed and down about the past year. I did became pretty negative because Of transferring to a new school during my junior year, missing my last group of friends, being/feeling alone, and realizing that I just don't clique with my old high school fitness anymore because I had changed so much. I guess she didn't want me to cling to her the way I might have. Which I do admit I would have been clingy for a while at least until I found my way around school and joined things. I completely regressed in character.. at my last college I was so vibrant, outgoing and overall happy with who I'd become. I really wish I would have never switched because of one bad semester and allowed my friends loneliness and familiarity to sway me like that...

It's just so weird seeing her on campus and watching her avoid me. Seeing her life continue through social media and not in person. I'm happy for her, but I hate that she didn't just say that I was possibly fucking up as a friend.

I spend most of my time alone now because I've had to cut a lot of friends out of my own life. Ivemet many people in my own just from exploring and joking things. I still haven't found my place at this school because being a transfer is hard especially living off campus. I still talk to my old friends and I'm just having a hard time :( however, I know I will survive and things will turn around! I realize that I'm better off getting to know myself.. maybe when the roles are reversed, she will have to see me doing really well from the outside looking in.

Has this ever happened to anyone, regardless of what side of the friendship they were on? I'd love to hear your story?