I hate squirting!

Whenever it happens, it always takes me by surprise, I get extremely self-conscious, wondering and worrying if I accidentally peed myself and if it's gonna leave annoying wet spots with a nasty smell if we're at his place.

It makes me so self-absorbed that I don't even know if I'm orgasming or just squirted! And it usually leaves me all dried up, kind of like it flushed all natural lube off me.

Guys are usually quite ok or even happy about it, but it's not about them - it's about ME and MY abilities to just let go of these stubborn thoughts in the splash of the moment..

Anyone ever felt the same? Any advice in how to handle this?