Breastfeeding and sex

I'm breastfeeding and have been for 10months. My husband wanted sex tonight and I turned over and tried to think about other things. I tried not to think about the pain and the skin crawling feeling of just being touched. Then when he was done, I got up and went down stairs to finish laundry and pump. It makes me feel so empty. It's gotta be breastfeeding. I hate sex. I don't want to be touched. I don't want foreplay. I don't want to try and "get ready" or "relax". It hurts and I've never felt so gross in my entire life. Will this change once I'm done breastfeeding? Will I go back to normal?