Exhausted. I have dealt with so much shit in the past 2 weeks. 27hrs of painful hell =labor which turned into a csection. Then my painful cracked bleeding nipples which I was told the latch needed corrected, come to find my child has an awful tongue tie, got that procedure done. Refuses to latch at every feeding. Gave up on the nipple shield-it hurts too much. Resorted to bottle feeding and pumping. Noticing he always wants more than I have to give every 2 hrs. I have clogged milk ducts in one breast I am trying to fix (second time it has done this). It is producing less than the other so I know it is why my kid isnt getting what he needs. So now a new issue just sprung up. He has a bright red rash around his butthole area. Of all diaper rashes...this is a food allergy rash. So at some point I ate something and he has to suffer for it. Soooooo, when I wanted my birth to be natural and I ended up with sciatica and chose to be induced because I was overdue and knew I would need pain meds and it turned into a surgery and then I wanted to do the natural breastfeeding way and everything is going wrong and pointing me to give formula. The next thing will probably be allergy to certain formula and I get to battle that. I know parenting isnt easy and their will always be problems but HOLY CRAP, when do I get a chance to just enjoy my kid and relax. I stress and cry everyday and I just feel so failed. And can I add that I just pumped and only got ONE ounce....probably because I am sitting here upset over everything. It hasnt even been a full 2 weeks yet....and all this.