Two years ago I recovered from severe anorexia, and was able to gain back 50 pounds, I'm back to a healthy weight of 110 (I'm about 5'4). This being said I keep struggling with relapsing. I feel like I'm so fat and disgusting. And I've been struggling with bulimia since I recovered. I don't know what to do. I just want to be able to see my stretch marks from recovery and say that they are beautiful rather than always finding ways to hide. Or step on a scale and no cry. Or eat a freaking cookie without getting sick. Does anyone have any advice?