So I am in complete disbelief and insanely heartbroken. I had 2 mc back in 2014 and 2015 and in 2016 I gave birth to my daughter. I got pregnant and made it to 14wks. I went in to the dr for my checkup (to hear the heartbeat) on Friday. Saturday we had our gender reveal party scheduled. It turns out baby didn't have a heartbeat and died either that same day or within a couple of days. My dr sent me to a radiologist to double check and after an hour long ultrasound he confirmed that my baby had died. I am now waiting for a dr to call me to do yet another ultrasound and to schedule a D&C.; It was a boy! I keep reading about people saying that they went through the same thing and had an ultrasound days after and baby was fine. The dr said he couldn't find any indication as to why it happened. Baby was the right size and formed perfectly so wtf happened? I feel like I need a little bit of hope but I think about the ultrasound and how my baby looked so limp and lifeless and all hope goes away and pain and anger set in. I'm terrified of the D&C.; I am an emotional wreck. Not to mention that I still have an incredible amount of nausea, my belly and feel movement inside. I have to constantly remind myself that I am carrying around my dead son inside and can't do anything to bring him back. All I can do is wait. But to top off our shitty day.. That same day that we found out (Friday) my daughter (1yr old) had a febrile seizure and was taken away in an ambulance. What should've been an excited weekend full of celebration and laughter turned into the worst weekend I've ever had 😔

Update: I went to the dr today for a viability check and of course there was no heartbeat. I had to relive it all over again and was expected to keep it together. Unfortunately I'm not as heartless as they want me to be. I am now scheduled to have a D&C; Thursday morning. My anxiety is through the roof and my depression is taking over my mind and body. My next stop will be my dr to get on depression meds.