Well my wprst fears have come true... I started spotting last night and then this morning it turned into bleeding like a period... the doctors called a couple hours ago and informed me that my HCG levels have lowered and im officially having a miscarriage... they told me I can take pain meds if I want to, but for some reason I dont want to. I want to feel the pains and aches...

They want me to see them in a couple weeks to make sure my levels are at zero again so I can try again...

But I dont know if I want to anymore.... I feel like im just not supposed to be a mom.... idk what to do...