Tired & sad

I hope something reads this & doesn't ignore me! 😞 2 years ago I had a miscarriage, I only tried one month with that baby & got pregnant right away! After I had my miscarriage the doctor said I could try right away, he said everything looked fine!! I tried a couple weeks after & nothing :( so my SO & I stopped trying for a whole year ! After my miscarriage my period was never normal 😞 I would get it every month but it was always a couple days late! Right now I am ttc, I am 20 days late & nothing 😔 it wasn't first morning urine but I don't think that makes a difference because I'm 20 days late, it should already show up by now 😔I am just so worried, im always thinking I can't have kids anymore 😭