Anyone else feel like this?

I feel like I do everything around the home. Its only me and my boyfriend in a small flat but I deal with all the bills, weekly food shops and planning, cleaning and tidying, washing up, when the bed needs changing, even making sure his shifts are put on the calendar so we know what is going on, planning anything we do whether its going out for food or something like the cinema working out times and driving us there. Deciding what to watch on tv keeping in mind what he likes so having to please him with what I choose.

And currently I've had a rough couple of weeks mentally, just struggling with juggling a job I dislike right now and all this. So everything has sort of gone to pot.

The apartment is a mess with no clean plates, rubbish everywhere, nothing on the calendar, fridge is empty etc etc etc. The fact everything is such a mess is getting me down even more and I just can't face it. Bill companies are adding arrears making them harder to pay even though I pay them every month i was just a couple days late i guess.

This is my first home after moving out of my parents and its just so hard. I don't know what I'm doing as nobody ever taught me yet these companies send threatening letters and extra costs. Im trying my very hardest but feels like I'm just getting beaten down.

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