I'm out

Jenna • Pcos. 4 miscarriages. Trying for a rainbow. Inactive sometimes because I am sick of the rudeness

Fuck pcos am I right? I missed my period last week and was spotting brown blood the whole time, never enough where it'd be in my panties, but when I wiped it was there. Yesterday after working at the farm I felt cramping. I started praying do not let this be my period right now. After I went inside and checked, the spotting became pink. I had just gotten 3 tests at the store and was planning on taking one this morning but I found blood in my panties. My period came. I really hate how pcos fucks with my body. I'll get so excited every month thinking now is MY chance but nope my period either comes, is very late, or doesn't come at all and it's negative. I had all the symptoms! My boyfriend can tell it's taking a toll on me so as of right now, we are stopping TTC, and I will be stepping off the app for awhile. Idk if this makes me sound horrible, but I can't handle seeing happy people with their babies as soon as I open the community tab. I have enough of it off the app since 3 close friends of mine are all pregnant and they have no idea I've been trying to conceive for 2 years, and it be 3 years since my first miscarriage. So good luck and I wish you all baby dust. Cherish your little babies, you never know how long you have with them.