Hard nights

Today April 23 marks the 12 wrk mark since I had my D&C. This last week has hit me so hard. I was 12w1d and miss my sweet baby so much. It makes things harder when you have a close friend that was five days ahead of me. We were so excited to be pregnant together. I see her now and it kills me. I know I should have a bump like her. I would have hit 24 weeks this week. This is the first MC for me. I've had 4 but I had several US with this one and watched her/him grow. I'm not sure how to make my nights better. I'm so busy all day that I don't have to think about it. At night I cry all the time. This week has been every night. I kee praying for God to take my pain. I know he has a plan. Please keep me in your prayers. Here's the last pic I got of my sweet baby