I have been suffering in silence with depression and anxiety for over 1 year and a half now. And I am in my third trimester of pregnancy and have not been doing so well

It's hard to keep a straight face. It's hard to focus at work or even get out of bed. I'm not eating or sleeping at night. I'm exhausted all the time. I'm spacey and don't even want to have conversations with my kids.

I try not to let it show because I'm afraid of what others might think of me especially since I have two kids who constantly need my attention.

I am a single mom. Pregnant. And all alone. No support that I want or need from the person who got me knocked up who calls himself a good father. Smh.

No support that I want or need from the family and friends that I do have. Everyone is just tired and fed up with telling me the same things over and over and I don't listen or I go back to hurting myself over and over.

I'm a victim of a narcissist and I suffer from codependency.

Idk how to ask for help anymore.

At this point it's like I can only help myself but I just want out!!!

What do I do?