Don’t want to try

I’m 34. A few months ago I had a very early miscarriage. I thought it was a good sign, that I was healthy enough to get pregnant. We have tried for the past three months. I’m in my fertile window and I don’t want to try at all.

I actually feel like I’ve changed my mind entirely if I want kids. It was almost like I felt like I dodged a bullet?

I know I feel guilty, but now this app is telling me to have sex, but it’s like... I think I’ve changed my mind about wanting kids.

My husband isn’t sure what to make of me thinking like this.

I feel like I don’t want this at this age. I wanted kids when I was younger, I just am starting to enjoy my life and routine and am not ready to give that up yet....

Maybe it’s because I had a miscarriage?

Help? Thoughts?