Is sobbing silently because your baby has been up for an hour and a half and you are completely exhausted. I couldn't get him to sleep in his cosleeper so he is currently in the swing and finally not crying. Now I feel horrible because I am probably going to leave him sleeping in his swing because I just need a break. I have a monitor but I hate him sleeping in another room and I know they aren't supposed to sleep in the swings. My husband is gone for work this week and I keep telling all of my family that I am fine but dear god this baby cries so much I think he is colicky and my back and hips hurt so bad from walking and bouncing with him constantly (because of course- he isn't consoled by rocking in the glider). And I hate feeling helpless when he cries. It's just the worst feeling in the world. And basically I just needed to vent because it's not all rainbows and teddy bears over here right now.