SICK TO MY STOMACH from fears of not going into labor like my first son he was forced out by drs with pitocin at 41w 7lb6oz but now my daughter is looking like shes not ever gonna come out on her own and i am not gonna be able to take a dr telling me C SECTION im terrified and petrified

i have very stubborn babies who dont come out im so scared like noone understands i fear if she does make it full term i wont be able to push her bc shes already 5lbs+ and her other brother was born 6lbs9oz bc i forced him out scared that he would tear me like his stubborn brother did at 7lbs what if she goes 8-9lbs im just soo scared i have no support no friends no mom no nothing just severe anxiety and depression 👶💖😥 and yes a pretty chubby stubborn baby if i make it through this im getting my tubes tied and just praise god i survived