I think I have postpartum depression. I love my baby more than anything but I just don't feel emotionally connected to him. His dad left us while I was pregnant and only has met him once, the day he was born and he's almost 6 weeks old. I feel like a horrible mother but this has been so much harder and more miserable just sitting home with a baby with no help all the time. I only have like 3 weeks left before I go back to work and I know I'm not gonna be able to handle it. I thankfully see my midwife tomorrow and I'm gonna talk to her about it. I don't deserve this baby when I can't emotionally take care of him the way he needs. I'm disgusted with myself for being this way toward my child and I literally never want another one because I don't ever wanna feel this way again. I don't want another child to be emotionally neglected like mine already is. Like I said, I love him more than anything, but I just think he deserves a mother who will sit on the floor with him and play and talk and tickle him. Ugh I'm totally horrified that I could even feel this way. Does/has anyone ever felt this way? Like, is this normal for ppd or is something like, literally wrong with me?