We had our moments I’ll admit, where we fight and argue. We also had the greatest moments of my life. You also were my first everything, first kiss, first time, first love. The whole nine yards. Yet, the venom that came out of our mouths is still lingering in our bloodstream. Each day that passes I can’t help but think of you. Whether it’s the little things that remind me of you, or in times where the ground is crumbling beneath me. You’re still the first person I want to talk to every night, and you still are the star in my dreams. I cannot take back the venom that came out of my mouth, and I will never want to take back the “I love you’s”.

I just wish you knew how much I still miss you, it’s been seven months since you’ve been gone. I see you all the time at school, in fact, you walked past me as if I was just a stranger this morning. It’s killing me inside. I want to talk to you and say all the things I’m saying now but I just can’t seem to have the courage. I still love you, and I think I always will.