Why is it so fun

To take prego tests? I know it’s way too early. I’m also extremely discouraged because I don’t feel like it will ever be my month... yet I still have to pee on the stick and it makes me feel better. Like oh it’s too early I don’t know it’s weird. I had a blighted ovum in feb and just feel blah. I’m 5 dpo feel weird but know it’s just progesterone. I’m gonna stop opks and temping but I still want to poas lol rant over. Anyone else? I need a friend through this wait af due 10/13