I’m want to be perfect

For the past two weeks I haven’t been eating and when I do I barely eat or I eat a small salad but when I’m forced to eat by my parents I work immediately after. All I do anymore is not eat not sleep and just work out I don’t want to be fit I want to be skinny it started out with me wanting a bigger butt then it went to abs and now it’s me wanting to be skinny. I have no one to talk to. I have this voice in my head that tells me not to stop working out and doing what I’m doing and it basically has me under its spell. I might sound crazy rn but it’s the truth I feel like I’m going insane but I can’t tell anyone about it bc they won’t believe me 😭I just need someone and I have no one